I just want to sleep. All the time. I’m on a new antidepressant medication (on top of the other antidepressant I already take) that keeps me awake. I only take it when I wake up.

Even though I’m awake I’m hoping to be tired so I can sleep. I hate feeling this way. If I can tune out the world for a few more hours I feel in control of my suffering…even though it’s actually doing the opposite.

I know I need to do the work to make this less of a problem but right now I just want to let go and lie down.